Yesterday was rough.
I realized how much strain I have put on my health, that I am starting to feel it the hard way. I’m finding myself more and more out of time through mind and soul. And the terrible thing about this, is that it’s not the first time I’ve felt this way. It’s the second.
The first time was two Octobers ago. The habit was at its toughest where I found myself reaching out for another gamble with life, 3 – 4 times a day. That may not seem like a lot compared to other individuals, but from being a social smoker to a craving addict… hmm, I would say it’s a huge leap. Essentially, it’s doubling my risk at heart disease every day I do it. It even sounds worse… craving addict. Anyway, that October I actually stopped for about 8 months and I think it’s time to do it again, but for longer.
I know I blogged before about not being able to stop… but when the consequences hit you head on like yesterday, it’s hard not to face it.
Good luck to me. Today is day 7 of becoming smoke-free. LS