I am not sure what it is, but something is pulling me down – almost into the lonely abyss I’ve avoided for the past 5 years. I’m starting to feel the need to push people away again. This cycle replaying every few years, but yet I have no reason as to why. It’s not like life is bad, it’s actually real good. Mind you, there are a lot of stresses – but nonetheless, they don’t shade over how happy I am with out life has turned out or the decisions I have made in the last few months.
If anything I should be exploding with content but I’m not and I don’t know why.